It’s been a while, friends. So I haven’t published a book since November of 2016. Like exactly a year and a half but lets say it’s been two years because that helps my victim complex. I touched on it a bit in an email I made at the end of last year where I talked about how I don’t enjoy being a full-time author. I talked about how I was going back to school and how book 5 in my series was up for pre-order and yada yada yada. “How’d that all go?”
I dropped outta school again and canceled that preorder. Talk about thriving am I right??
All these things were just new, they weren’t actually satisfying or fulfilling.
So what happened? Well, being a full time writer was a big part of the problem, definitely. I did not enjoy that. But then I also didn’t enjoy going back to school as much as I originally did. I also didn’t like living in Small Town Texas. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love it there and the three different ranches my family owns. There’s lots of good times to be had. But it’s more of a place I love to visit. All these things were just new, they weren’t actually satisfying or fulfilling.
Then there comes the issue of Book 5 in my superhero series.
They say don’t get married when you’re 20, don’t have kids, don’t get too set in your ideals, etc., because you’re gonna change. Well add “don’t publish a book series when you’re 20 because your writing is going to get better with every book, and your style is going to change dramatically.” Not only that but your tastes change, and you’re gonna be stuck with this amalgamation of a series that feels like it’s written by multiple people, all of whom don’t really get along and have different ideas. That mixed with the fact that I was writing full time and not enjoying it meant I dreaded when it came time to write a book in the series.
(For the record, this is how I viewed the series a few months ago. Not how I currently do. I was just being a drama queen back then.)
Needless to say, when it came time to write book 5 I wasn’t feeling very motivated. Not only that, but I tried a bunch of different plots and none of them were working. I thought I’d finally found the one, and even put it up for pre-order on Amazon. But that failed, obviously.
So despite things seeming like they were getting better for me personally, professionally, and mentally, things were just different, not necessarily better.
It makes it easy to want to throw your hands in the air and give up, then do something crazy like move to Phoenix and become a flight attendant.
Touching on that “mentally” part real quick, as I’m sure pretty much all of you can attest to, it’s hard to figure out what you wanna do when you’re young. Especially when everybody expects you to be an author since you’ve already done that successfully. So all the back and forth between writing, going to school, being unable to write, hating school, not knowing what else to do, etc., etc., can be very mentally taxing. It makes it easy to want to throw your hands in the air and give up, then do something crazy like move to Phoenix and become a flight attendant.
Which is what I did, actually. Because I mean hey if you hate being cooped up in a small town and want to have a job that’s unique and not your average 9-to-5, go big or go home.
So that’s been my new excuse as to why I haven’t been writing! Because since January I’ve been too busy with an awesome new job, living in a kickass new city, traveling the world with my super hot flight attendant girlfriend. She even has a B+ personality to boot! (I’m kidding of course. It’s an A- at the least.) Like for real the other night we were looking up how to make sushi for our date night, but then we kinda felt lazy so we looked up first class tickets to Tokyo and it’d only cost us 41 bucks. I mean we’d be doing ourselves and our tastebuds a disservice if we don’t go, right?
Integrating writing back into my life has taken longer and been more of a challenge than I originally thought.
This job has a rigorous training process that began right at the beginning of January, and it’s kept me quite busy. For example, I’m writing this post in a hotel room in Dallas, Texas. Tomorrow I’ll be writing the next post and working on my next book in a hotel room in Boise, Idaho. Sprinkle in three or four flights in between across a couple states and one too many time zones, and you’ve got yourself one heck of a lifestyle.
And that’s just this one trip!
So integrating writing back into my life has taken longer and been more of a challenge than I originally thought.
(This post is really long, but I promise I’m wrapping things up.)
With my personal and mental happiness levels at an all time high, it’s time to tackle the professional part.
I’ve made a commitment to my readers.
Am I as frustrated, mad, and angry at myself and The First Superhero Series as I was, say six months ago? No, not at all. I’ve accepted my shortcomings, and I’m ready to move on.
I’ve gone through many ups and downs over the past couple years, but I’ve made a commitment to my readers. I’m going to finish this series. I could’ve written a bunch of other books by now, but I just can’t let myself write anything else without finishing this series. It wouldn’t be fair to my readers, and I wouldn’t be able to focus my attention on anything else with the weight of my broken commitments hanging over my head.
You should never have to pay for an apology.
I’m going to start mending that breach of trust with you readers by writing a novella you all have been asking me about for a long time. It’s going to give you backstory on a fan-favorite character, while at the same time allowing me to stretch my legs, gain some confidence, shake off the rust, and get myself re-acclimated to the First Superhero universe. The story is pretty awesome, too. I don’t think there’s a single person who can expect what this book has in store.
As a way to say sorry, I’m going to give the novella to subscribers of my mailing list for free. This was a decision that I struggled with for maybe all of five seconds. Despite all the hours going into the conception and writing, along with the hundreds of dollars going towards editing and the cover, you should never have to pay for an apology. This whole project is a way to make up in some small way for not releasing book 5 sooner. I’ve got a draft of the cover done, which you can see here:
There’s a few things that need to be touched up, but that’s pretty much it as far as the cover goes! I’ve got the whole thing mapped out, along with most of book 5 in the main series. And this time, for book 5, I really dig the story and am excited to write it. I’ll write a post later going in-depth on my problems with book 5, and also explain why this version is the one that’s going to stick.
Tomorrow I’ll be back to let you know how my day of writing went, along with touching on my complete failure in communication with you, and how I plan to make up for it in the future.
Today will be my first day behind the computer, getting words down on the page. I could not be more excited. I even cheated and wrote the first 500 words or so.
Tomorrow I’ll be back to let you know how my day of writing went, along with touching on my complete failure in communication with you, and how I plan to make up for it in the future. Let’s just say it’s going to be filled with more action, less words. Call this my official apology tour, I guess.
Maybe I could’ve gotten here at some point on my own, but it would’ve taken a lot longer without her.
Lastly, I definitely could not have been at the point if it wasn’t for many things, but chief among them my lovely girlfriend. Maybe I could’ve gotten here at some point on my own, but it would’ve taken a lot longer without her.
Now whenever she asks me—as she does every. single. day—”Have you written yet?” Instead of giving her this look:
I can look at her like: